On the 7th of February we woke up to an article by Vulture.com where Quincy tells all. Well almost everything. The interview is a conversation between David Marchese and Quincy Jones, Quincy talks about his life and his strong opinions on different topics including Micheal Jackson’s insecurities with his skin colour and the hip hop industry as we know it today. The QuincyJones interview was trending for two full days and from the whole article this line stood out for me;
“God walks out of the room when you’re thinking about money…”
That line hit hard!
I got it. Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE MONEY and I believe that God wants me to have it all… BUT… For years I felt stuck and I took a break from making clothes and the fashion industry as a whole because of money. It started to feel like I wasn’t making “enough” money, so I focused a lot on making money and my creativity took a back seat. I made clothes that I thought would sell and not what I truly believed in. I made clothes for money and not for human beings and it showed. I tried too hard and the more I tried, everything seemed to fall apart. This time of my life was the most dangerous and that line from Quincy reminded me of it.
Let me tell You, the years that I took that break felt like God left me. It felt like a battle of the mind and the soul. A constant, daily battle with myself because I wasn’t true with myself and I was holding back so much. The mind was worried about money and the soul just wanted to create. I’ve learned that holding back is just as detrimental to my well being. I still have my days when I hesitate to go to my sewing machine because I ask myself; does God even want to meet me again?
I can take you through the deep emotions I felt during this time and how I almost gave up on life (story for another day) but I also know that I’m the one who “left” God, and not the other way around. He’s always been there all along, encouraging me to give it one more try. This time, I’m trusting my creativity and trusting that EVERYTHING else will be taken care of. Ladies I’m proud to share that I’m relaunching my fashion label this year, with a fresh new name and a fresh new approach.
The harvest is ready!
More details will come soonest.